Man, all I want to do is stay in tonight and work on an illustration for LDR and perhaps sew a witch hat for my rabbit.

 Some issues with classes this semester have my advisor pitted against course evaluators. Non seem the victor right now. I have no idea who to trust anymore. I want to be finished with university, Im not a big fan of the machine and Ive lost my precious fall evening/nights.

Just a thought. Also, its too warm on October 1st eve. It should be cold and dreery, much like myself.

  My thoughts today - Cultivating 

One of the great things about starting something new, is that you'll never know how far you can go with it or whats going to happen. This is just a thought that came into my brain. I had no idea how to style clothes for the longest time - I frankly found it to be intimidating. But if I don't know how to do something, I just start.

Everything comes down to cultivation. Time is our most precious commodity as a finite being(at least in this world). Time is what you can spend on someone, the investment in a relationship, a friend, family. Time is where you begin and end. Cultivation of a new undertaking is exactly like a tiny seed in the ground, something you start to water and watch and see what happens. Far to many people sit on the sideline of the soil, perhaps hoping the sun and rain will be enough without ever having planted anything. Sun and rain sustains but it doesn't grow without the catalyst. 

Its how I've viewed everything done in my life so far. I took a chance on the cultivation of something and it either worked out fantastically or blew up entirely in my face. I didnt wait for the rain to fall or the sun to shine. All the seeds planted will grow, but you have to start planting the seeds.

Just some two cents on this moody monday!

 

BIGGG thrift photo dump - The last 4 weeks of the fall semester had me holding off on the blog. I dont want to spam my FB with a bunch of pictures of me. Especially since I take them in one place with one light source. If I can find a way to change that, I will. But for now:

Thrifting and finding little gems here and there is therapy for me. It gets me out of the house, it unlocks creative potential and its one of life's mini treasure hunts. Ive spent less then 100.00 and found a variety of new looks/combos that paired with my jewelry and shoes(2 pairs of converse also thrifted!) the possibilities do seem endless. 

Ive invested in a pair of doc martens, specifically the burgundy zip up/tie sinclairs. A worthy investment too. A chunky/boxy shoe can make a fit look more expensive then it is(And, a lot more punk/alt). Right now, I dont have the jewelry/belts that id like to REALLY kick it all together. Most of the alt pieces I found have been pricey, and unless I DIY, I have to hold off. 

I finally found a blazer I liked that was a great price and in great shape. Ive never liked wearing blazers before, but since Im exploring, I thought id pick one up. LOVE the way it looks, and I was mostly inspired to do so by the outfits that Mallory Heart(pictured below) puts together. I discovered Mallory while trying to find others to follow - her entire wardrobe is vintage 80s and she wears it daily. 

My most recent finds have been an urban outfits leatherette dress/overall with the TAGS ON! 90.00 new and I got for about 10.00. Its a great staple piece to wear under trench coats, blazers, or oversize sweaters.

Im still on the lookout for a vintage 90s oversize leather jacket. But since thats entirely too specific, I doubt ill find one in the wild. 

Also! A new tattoo. Its a pierrotpokes flash that Josh Avery at stay weird slightly modified. I have to say, Im not the best candidate for tattoos. For all the physical pain ive endured, its hard to submit to that haha. Will I get more? The last one im planning is a rabbit - its a homage to the story of yin yin, the rabbit who hunts tigers. 

We are in the 4th week of classes, I am locked in and got back into routine. Lets finish up strong!

 School is back in session. The 1st Day already had me running around.

I haven't shored myself up as much as I'd like, but my head is in the game. From my calculations, each one of my sessions is 25. Only 25 classes. 

I have a mid morning class everyday and that's going to only allow me about 5 hours of sleep everyday, with 2 hours of free time. I can do this. I have to do this. 2 more semesters , just 2. I've unfortunately developed migraines and I'm hoping to get some help with that next year.

My next 3 months are already planned day by day so I simply look at my schedule and see where I have to be next. I've gotten in the habit of laying my outfits out to also cut some time. I had a very good break, lots of self reflecting and peaceful nights. 

Some recent sketches and Halloween decor I pulled out from the closet 

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